Look, I don’t profess to know the mind of a cop: a good cop
or a bad one. I do know something about
fear however.
Fear can be for real and it can also be for not. It can be
experienced based, and it can be imagined.
Example. I’m afraid of sharks. However, I have never had any kind of encounter with a shark in my life. Never been attacked, or bitten. I’ve see a few small sharks in the ocean and they tranquilly and peacefully left me alone. But, if I go into the surf, I ALWAYS think of sharks. There is nothing I can do about it – I will always have fear of sharks tucked away in my head. And while I still go to the ocean and swim, I know in my heart of hearts, that shark fear might very well affect my behavior in a high stress situation. Meaning that I truly believe I would instantly attempt to rescue a child who is being attacked by a pit bull, but I’m almost sure I would hesitate if the same child was being attacked by a sand shark.
And I have been bitten and snarled at by dogs. One might say I’m prejudicial toward sharks because I judge them harsher then dogs based on no real evidence.
I bring this up because of what is going on with policing these days.
This story is an amazing example of how – in my mind – prejudicial thoughts towards African Americans by white police officers is deeply rooted in fear. The story juxtaposes how far a white police officer will go to avoid shooting an armed and crazy white man, while showing how quickly another white officer will gun down an unarmed black man.
In my mind, the white officer in the first case simply does not fear the white man – even though he has every right to – enough to kill him. Whereas the second case shows how much the officer must fear the black motorist, as evidenced by his incredibly quick trigger finger for a non-threatening action.
It seems to me that a lot of (not all) white cops have a deep-seated fear of would-be black criminals that they simply don’t have of would-be white criminals. And like me with sharks, I also believe that fear is based on prejudicial feelings not based in experience or fact.
I’m not saying that the cops in the news recently never had difficult and stressful run-ins with blacks during the course of their policing. I’m sure they did. But the statistics show us unequivocally that those same cops must have had even more frequent difficult and stressful run-ins with whites. I just believe that the fear of the black criminal is given unequal attention in the mind of many cops than that of the white criminal.
And for the vast majority of us white people, the same holds true. We fear blacks unequally to those who share our skin tone.
A black person has never done anything negative toward me. I have never been punched, threatened or victimized by a black person. I have been punched, pushed, threatened and victimized by white people. But if I’m walking down a lonely street at night by myself, who would I fear more walking toward me – a black man or a white man?
I know the answer and I feel shame.